Pagkurap

minsan, we hold on to something too long enough dahil na rin sa nararamdaman nating affinity sa bawat saglit na tignan natin ito. we tend to look at and reminisce the past instead of learning from it kaya talagang minsan, anghirap bumitaw.

paninindigan ba tawag d'un?

hanggang sa maging dragging na ang bawat sitwasyon at panahon. hindi ka na maka-move on. hindi ka na nabubuhay sa present. dahil stubborn kang umaasa sa akala mo ay mababago rin isang araw.

marami kasi sa atin ang naniniwala sa kasabihang "kung saan ka nadapa..."

hindi natin nare-realize na mas importanteng maintindihan at malaman na minsan, may mga laban talaga na dapat nang isuko. na sa buhay, may mga laban na nakatadhana nang hindi natin maipapanalo.

ang mahalaga naman natuto ka. maaaring nalugmok ka pansamantala. pero ikaw pa rin ang pipili kung gaano katagal ang pansamantala, hindi ba?

hindi ba't marami ka na ring napalagpas na pagkakataon para mag-iba ang ikot ng mundo mo?

"sa pagpinid ng ating mga mata at sa muli nitong pagbukas, bakit hindi naman natin tignan ang sa simula't simula pa ay naghihintay lang na makita natin?"

Lip Liner 7

Wimbledon Disappointment.

Rafael Nadal is not playing the grass this year. I was soooo disappointed! Hindi na nga n'ya na-defend 'yung French Open, pati ba naman ang Wimbledon? But then again, that does not change the fact that he is a great player. I just wish he stays out of injuries so people can see him playing Grand Slams more often for the many years to come. Besides, tennis will become boring without him.

Pop Goes the King.

Michael Jackson died on Thursday. I grew up to his music and had tried to emulate his moonwalk. Sheez! Just kiddin' on the moonwalk part. Hehehehe. Well, I assume that he is one celebrity not a single person on earth who is not in a coma does not recognize ( no matter how vague, no matter how demeaning ). So, expect a barrage of news on every media about anything related to the King of Pop.

Probably Probable.

I have been using the word "probably" so profusely in my correspondence and conversations that I think I am beginning to unuse "maybe". I just love the sound and tone it brings to a message. It seems more high end, tactful and genuinely savoir faire. And, probably very British.

To Renovate Or Rebuild?

I have finally decided not to renovate our family home. Well, just last night since the dilemma started 3 years ago. I was told that renovating is costlier than building a new house. Besides, creativity is limited in renovation. There are just some things you can not do as some parts are almost impossible to change already. So, I called my mother today and told her I want the house destroyed! She was speechless for a while and, knowing that she did not raise a monthly period-stricken b*tch, had to laugh out loud when she realized it was just me being Marvin again. Very up-to-the-moment. I told her they will practically be homeless until the new one is built while I'd be tightening my already tight belt. Still, I'm nothing short of excited!

Quick Round Up.

My friend Bessie gave birth last week to a baby boy. I told her how happy I am now that she is a mother. Apparently, she's loving every moment of it! Meanwhile, recently, Jocelyn, a classmate from elementary found me in Dubai through Friendster. It was a long shot from those days but I can still remember how she used to fetch me up to go for Christmas carolling every year. Sheer fun and pure business! Hahaha. Incidentally, through Friendster (again, albeit I don't log in to that social networking site very often anymore) also, I found out that one of my high school classmates, Popes and one of my college schoolmates, Abe (he aptly changed it to Yva, that b*tch! hehehehe) are working in Dubai. Have excitedly spoken with them but haven't met all of them yet so, I guess I'd be looking forward to a busier calendar next month. Oh saints save this blog!

Coming Out

Sa mga naghanap sa akin, narito lang ako. Hindi ako nawala. Huwag kayong mag-alala. Ligtas ako sa swine flu kung iyan ang nasa sa isip n'yo.

At sa mga magtataas ang kilay dahil hindi nila naramdaman ang pagkawala ko, pakiusap, manahimik po kayo!

Ahihihihihi. Comeback ko 'to, baket ba!

Well, kinailangan ko lang talaga ang moment. Matinding pangangailangan ng moment...

...para sa nakaka-nosebleed na adjustment at kasanayan sa bago naming payroll system. Nabilang ko na ata lahat ng bituin sa langit at mga ilaw sa bawat sulok ng hotel namin dahil sa halos bente kwatro oras kong pagroronda. Minsan iniisip ko, is it worth it? Ano ba talaga ang trabaho ko? Tiga-pasweldo ba o barangay tanod? Bakit wala akong vest? Nasaan ang ever reliable deadly batuta? Bakit walang naghahanap kay chairman?

...para sa pagbawi ng mga tulog na nawala at lumipas. Ansakit pala talaga sa loob nang malipasan ka ng antok. Ngayon ko lang na-realize 'yung napanood ko sa isang series tungkol sa mga hotelier. Mahirap daw ang buhay ng isang nagtatrabaho sa hotel. Lalo na kung ang karelasyon mo eh hindi hotelier. Madalas daw pagod ka dahil sa long hours at wala kang mai-devote na time para sa partner mo kapag gising sila. Kapag naman daw sila ang pagod, ikaw naman ang gising at wala ka ring magawa kundi i-try na lang matulog kasama sila. Hayzzz! Pero mahal ko na 'ata ang pagtatrabaho sa hotel. I can't get enough of it.

...para sa pagdadownload at panonood ng tv series at movies na na-miss ko dahil nagtututulog ako. Natapos ko na ang Prison Break at nalungkot ako sa ending. Wala na akong aabangang Michael Scofield! Huhuhuhu. May mga sapantaha ang mga kaibigan ko na may season 5 pa ito dahil ang magpapatuloy daw ay ang anak ni Michael. Sige lang mga ineng! Hintayin ninyong magbinata 'yung bagets!

...at siyempre, para isaayos ang mga priorities ko ulit sa buhay. Nagawa kong mag-SWOT analysis, short at long term plan checking & revision, cost-benefit analysis, reforecast at kung anik anik pang chuva na sa tingin ko eh much needed sa panahon ng krisis. Kulang na nga lang mag-Eva test na rin ako para magkaalaman na! Hihihihi.

At bago ko makalimutan, ang larawan sa itaas ay kuha nitong nakaraang kaarawan ng matalik kong kaibigan na si Jong. 'Yung babaeng nakakulay lumot pero hindi naman po s'ya amoy lumot. Huwag po natin s'yang husgahan. Hihihihihi.

Well, opo! May birthday s'ya. At nagtipar-tipar ang hitad!

Hindi ko na kinuhanan ang handa dahil mas delectable naman ako dun! At isa pa, napaka-demanding ng celebrant sa regalo. Nadehydrate ako sa ipinabili! Hmmmph!

Anyway, umaasa ako na napatawad ninyo ako sa panandalian kong pagkawala at hayaan n'yong bumawi ako sa inyo sa mga susunod kong posts nang bonggang bongga.

At muli, sa mga hindi maintindihan ang mga pinagsasabi ko dito, manahimik po kayo!

:-)

Who Says I Can't Cook Again?

At dahil nanalo si Kris Allen sa American Idol over the extremely talented na si Adam Lambert, nag-promise ako sa mga friendship ko na magpapa-victory party ako. Siyempre, feeling close kay Kris. Naks! First name basis na kami. Hehehe.

Alas-siyete pa lang ng umaga ng Biyernes, binulabog ko na si Jong para makapag-grocery na kami. Ang menu - Baked Macaroni. Tunog masarap 'di ba? Ulitin natin ang pagbigkas. This time, may halong pagnanasa - Ba-hay-ked Mac-cah-roneeeh. :-)

Alam naman ni Jong na 'pag may naisip ako eh gusto ko ngayon na gawin. Walang bukas bukas.

Ang challenge, first time kong gagawin ang dish na ito. Furthermore, hindi namin mahanap ang Velveeta cheese na supposed to be ay isang brand ng quickmelt cheese.

Ang solution, memory bank. The night before, nag-research na ako sa internet kung ano ang composition ng quickmelt cheese at kung ano ang difference n'ya sa cheddar. Well, according to wikipedia, ang quickmelt cheese ay isa sa mga types of processed cheese. So, 'yun ang hinanap ko nang hindi ako makakita ng Velveeta which took us from one mall to another. It was 40 degrees in Dubai yesterday! The pain I would endure for the victory party na wala namang nag-request! Kusang-loob lang at taos puso. Hahahahaha.

I added some smoked pepperoni on the ingredients and super daming bell pepper. Yummy!

Anyway, here's the finish product:

Shoots! Everybody loved it! They can't believe na first time kong gawin ito. Hah! Pwede na akong ikasal! :-)

Urgent

Sa gitna ng ka-busyhan ko kahapon sa opisina, nakatanggap ako ng e-mail galing kay Naruto. Nasa Hongkong ang Hapon na makulet. Nalipat kase s'ya doon mula Shanghai. Ang huli naming correspondence eh noong binati ko s'ya ng birthday noong March. Tinukso ko pa nga na mas matanda na naman s'ya sa akin ng 2 years. Sumagot naman at sinabing mas mukha daw akong matured. Makapang-asar!

Madali lang makipag-communicate sa kanya kase pareho lang naman kami ng company. Nasa ibang bansa lang s'ya. Ang subject sa latest e-mail n'ya ay URGENT.

Mabilis ko namang binuksan ang e-mail habang kinakabahan. Nawindang ako sa subject ng e-mail nya. Baka narealize ng otoko na tumatanda na nga s'ya at naisip n'yang hingin na ang kamay ko para makapag-start na kami ng family ASAP. Urgent eh!

"Hi, are you planning to take vacation on August?"

Pucha! Ano namang ikina-urgent nito?

Ah! Baka magpo-propose?

"I'm planning to take a week vacation in either Japan or Hongkong to meet you probably on August or September. I will be in Philippines on December. Why?"

'Pag ito nalaman ni Drake...

"Ok. They are asking me to take my outstanding vacation on August. I thought you will go to the Philippines. So, I will meet you then."

Hmmm. Ano kayang iniisip nito?

"Yes. But I still have to book my flight. What's the plan?"

Siyempre, kailangan ready. Bibili na ba ako ng tuxedo? :-)

"You will know."

May gan'on?

"Yeah? What is it?"

No reponse.

The next morning...

"Hey! What's the plan?"

No reply.

Later today...

"Any clue?"

Silence.

Peste! Dapat ang subject ng e-mail eh SUSPENSE!

Breakfast

This would send shivers down my mother's spine!

If Mama finds out what I'm having for breakfast, she'd surely send me a one-way ticket to the Philippines.

Sheeezzzz! I just miss waking up to the smell of her sinangag, pritong itlog, tuyo and some leftover food from last night. I know how to cook it myself but it's just sheer heaven if Mama is doing it for us. We do feel pampered. Home sweet home!

And if those tempting food are not enough to get me out of bed, she would (almost) nonchalantly start a siga with the gathered dried leaves and will make sure that the smoke will get in to my room! Waaaaahhh!

"Mama naman! Ok na eh!"

American Idol Season 8 Finale

The final face-off. It's Adam Lambert vs. Kris Allen.

Just like last year's American Idol final where two of my favorites made it as the last two man standing before David Cook won over David Archuleta, this year's season finale will prove to be just as exciting.

Adam and Kris have always been my favorite since day 1. I know Adam can rock the audience with his performance but Kris can swoon anyone with his soothing vocals and artistic arrangements. Sheez! It's soooo freakin' hard to take sides.

One thing's for sure though, it's going to be an awesome battle. Simon Cowell even said it could be a "Big Ding Dong". I wonder what that means...

I'd be excited to check on Adam and will slightly ( and secretly ) wish Kris would blow everyone away.

OK fine! I'm a Kris Allen fan! He'll win. :-)

Watch them on May 20 to find out who deserves to be called the American Idol.

(whispered chant - Kris Allen! Kris Allen! Kris Allen! ahehehhehe ).